Well I guess it’s been a long time since I last blogged. And to give you an update my friends, I’m kind of having an incredible time with myself while everyone’s enjoying their summer vacation. I’m actually enjoying this as I’m having a long distance relationship with temptations.
I spent my Holy Week reading Message in a Bottle and The Zahir and I tell you guys, I learned a lot about life and love. And now, you may wonder what am I doing at home: Nothing but a great time having movie marathon and catching up with 90210. For months, I waited for this to happen - to spend quality time with myself alone, to unwind, to reflect and especially to love myself. Everytime I catch a glimpse of myself in front of the mirror, I pause and try to appreciate what I see. I fix my hair, I stare at my eyes, my lips, my nose, my face. I get time to review and embrace myself. I am loving loving myself. I don’t care about my body, all I do is eat what I want and make sure that even my soul is not hungry. I appreciate myself than ever before. I can’t say that I’m happy happy. This is just the first step.
And now just a random thought: This year that I am turning 21, I noticed that I am really becoming an adult by the thoughts that pops in my head. Is it normal to not picture yourself raising kids? Are you supposed to at least imagine what would your child look like? I wanna ask my grandma that if she was my age, she thought of having children and what would it be like. Well, I didn’t ask her. I don’t know but maybe it’s not my top priority. Is it normal to think of that way though?
Thanks for taking time to read my short update and now, if you will excuse me, I have a lot of catching up to do with my social network. I can’t picture myself being an anti-social either though I haven’t been to any place since the school year ended.
Don’t worry, I’ve loads of things to post. They’re saved on my computer. It’s just that this is not yet the time. More pictures and thoughts and ideas soon! I’ll keep you posted! xx