These past few days, I’m noticing that I’m wasting the food that I order. Not that kind when you waste, waste. It’s not usual especially for me who’s so afraid to throw away her food if she doesn’t like it anymore. You know, it’s not really that easy for me to waste especially when it’s food that we’re talking about here. I also care about the money because it is not mine to be wasted. It is my parents’ so who am I to spend for something that I waste? Every time I see left overs even when I’m eating with friends or my siblings, I tell them to finish it because of the fact that there are a lot of people in this world who doesn’t have the opportunity to have food and eat like we do.

It’s hard for me, too, because I live in a dormitory and no one is here to save me if I don’t like the food. I usually give it to my dad or my older siblings so not to say that I’m not wasting the food I eat. 

I’m not sure if I’m experiencing eating disorder again or it’s because of the food preparation? I don’t know. Earlier, I feel hungry then later on, I’m full after seeing the food. I don’t know what’s happening to me. I get the feeling that every food I eat has the same taste. I can’t sort of explain it very well but it’s like my system doesn’t really need food at the moment. 

Trivia: When I unintentionally and being forced to throw rice, I ask/pray for forgiveness. It may sound cheesy but it’s true. It’s really not easy for me.

Food is a blessing. There may be future consequences in doing such attitude that we may not like so we should give importance to everything we receive.